DID

“The so-called ‘psychotically depressed’ person who tries to kill herself doesn’t do so out of quote ‘hopelessness’ or any abstract conviction that life’s assets and debits do not square. And surely not because death seems suddenly appealing. The person in whom Its invisible agony reaches a certain unendurable level will kill herself the same way a trapped person will eventually jump from the window of a burning high-rise. Make no mistake about people who leap from burning windows. Their terror of falling from a great height is still just as great as it would be for you or me standing speculatively at the same window just checking out the view; i.e. the fear of falling remains a constant. The variable here is the other terror, the fire’s flames: when the flames get close enough, falling to death becomes the slightly less terrible of two terrors. It’s not desiring the fall; it’s terror of the flames. And yet nobody down on the sidewalk, looking up and yelling ‘Don’t!’ and ‘Hang on!’, can understand the jump. Not really. You’d have to have personally been trapped and felt flames to really understand a terror way beyond falling.” ― David Foster Wallace This guy's blog is worth a read http://una-together-as-one.blogspot.co.uk/2014/08/a-bad-day.html?m=1

Joan Rivers Quote </3

".... All I want you to do, if we are sitting down and it’s after 6 p.m., is tell me the truth. Because we’ve all lied to each other all day long in business and we’ve all had these lunches and we’ve all ass-kissed to the point where I carry Chapstick. If I am going to sit down and eat with you, just tell me the truth and let me say to you, ‘Things are lousy and I’m sad.’ ”

I Am Many Trapped In One

Ron, my fire....I love him the most. Purposeful and committed....the protector....the one who gets things done. Veronica....feisty and passionate....reckless and wild. Rose....the mother....living in and sharing beauty....she is loved and respected by us all. Marsha....the child....looks up to the others and longs for peace. Ever hopeful and so quick to trust.

Goodbye Summer (Time To Bury Love)

Sitting outside Under a late summer sky.... Pure blue and beautiful Legs burning in the sun.... Heart burning with longing Heart racing at the thought of your fingers on me Spiral of smoke ascending Gentle breeze blowing like your breath on me.... Arms bare and aching for your touch.

I Dont Know

I don't know....

I damned well don't know

I don't know....

I damned well don't know

I don't know....

I damned well don't know

I don't know....

I damned well don't know

We're fighting.... Not seeing eye to eye Keeping distant.... Will our love die?.... It's still new.... This thing with me and you Will we be ok?

I'm hiding How I truly feel I'm doubting If our love is real We rushed in.... I feared at first I shouldn't have clung to you....

I don't know.... I damned well don't know I don't know.... I damned well don't know I don't know.... I damned well don't know I don't know.... I damned well don't know

I'm hurting And I'm hurting you I wonder If we'll make it through It's way too Soon for us To be so torn....

What happened?!!!! What we had was good I'd fix this If I only could But I refuse to Hold on to Something that's killing me

I don't know....

I damned well don't know

I don't know....

I damned well don't know

I don't know....

I damned well don't know

I don't know....

I damned well don't know

Substance impairs you and I Don't know who you are....

Did I ever know the real you....who is he?....

the you that I love, or the you who I'm hiding from?

I don't know.... I damned well don't know I don't know.... I damned well don't know Well, fuck me!.... I damned well don't know I don't know.... I damned well don't know.........

Pleasure the Priestess-A Winding Road

https://m.soundcloud.com/ptp/a-winding-road-original-mix

Shame On Me

Keeping calm and carrying on As though I didn't sin Burning from the inside out....my mind has become my own personal hell. I sinned against the one I love....who loves me....and I want to die. I *am* dying....I have poisoned our love and await death. I have not been on this side of judgement; I have shown mercy to those who have sinned as I....I have also raged against their transgressions.... Now I sit in wait of mercy or punishment. The heart of my love is heaven and I deserve to be cast out.